Back Flips and Breakthroughs

Peter has just called me outside to show me that he has finally learned to do a back flip on the trampoline.  He gave up last week - couldn't get it, came inside, did not want to play.  Tonight, with the help of a friend here at Windmill - he got it.  He is delighted - I told him that he always had the capability, he just needed some help.

I am delighted because of several spiritual breakthroughs I have experienced in the last few months.  I am so convinced that God brings people to the field to first fix them, heal them and enlarge their hearts.  I came to England  ( ta da!!!) to help people.  God gently showed me how much I needed help.  My marriage hit an all time low our first year here.  Then it just limped along for a long time and has been a much discussed subject in my prayer time.  I would love to say that I reacted to our trials in a mature manner - but I became a better Pharisee.  I smiled and acted like everything was fine on the outside but seethed with resentment on the inside.  I also struggled with other aspects of the ministry and culture.  Inside I was throwing temper tantrums and blaming everyone else.  But I had one good idea - one good habit.  I kept bringing it all to God.  I wrestled with Him on the injustice on my life.  He answered and finally I listened.  One morning I heard God say - "There is reward in obedience."  I assumed that it was heavenly reward.  But it is more - He showed me that my obedience affects those around me.  Breakthrough!!!  

I still have things to wrestle with God.  I keep finding new areas of sin in me.  I am still covered in my flesh.  But I have hope of many future breakthroughs!